Here goes one of those blogs that don’t get a lot of pre-think time. That always goes one of two ways- 1) really well or 2) not so really well. Let’s all cross our fingers for #1. No money back guarantee here though, folks.

I love that NBC shows The Office reruns. That’s so right.

It’s been a long, sad week. A few months ago, I was going to write (or had at least written in my head) a blog about why I love Jackson County and the people there. I just can’t do it right now. But it will come. Wait for it.

And I’m sorry to all my friends who have feared I dropped off Earth for the last 5 days. I haven’t.

I’m SO glad I went up there for the visitation and the funeral- it meant a lot to the team and to me. And I owed it to Kyle- I skipped the senior game this year, thinking it wouldn’t be a big deal. It’s not a guilt thing. It’s a lesson learned. One mistake I won’t make twice. Thankfully, Kyle knew the Lord, so the only sadness is for those left here. My friend Joseph is the boys’ coach- I couldn’t be more proud to call someone my friend. He is making a Godly impact on those boys and for some reason, knowing another Christian is there makes me feel like I’m still a little bit there. That may not make sense. Sorry.

I’m working on praying. In cell group, we talked about prayer and the discipline of it. And how it is a learning thing. You have to learn to pray. I think I forget that sometimes. I believe fully in doing something right or not doing it at all. If I can’t get it right, I usually either don’t do it or research it fully until I know how to do it correctly. Apparently God doesn’t want us to work that way. I wish I didn’t. So I’m asking Him to explain these verses to me to help me work on it.

Matthew 7:7-11
Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened. Which of you, if his son asks for bread, will give him a stone? Or if he asks for a fish, will give him a snake? If you, then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him!”

I figure if He wrote it, He should be able to explain it to me. I think it allows for mistakes- it doesn’t say “ask the RIGHT question”, it just says “ask”. Also, I have such a deep love for my Earthly parents that I want to get how God is even more loving and faithful that the ones I can see. These verses are read a lot and talked about a lot but I am no longer okay with just saying, “Yeah, I get it” but then not knowing what this scripture LOOKS like in my life. I hate that feeling- the one that says “I can quote a scripture to you but please don’t ask me how I know it is true in my own life”.

So, please don’t ask me that.

Yet.