I love Scotland in the wintertime.

on September 17, 2010 in Dreams Coming True, Scotland with 37 comments by
[That may not be how the song goes…. just move along…..]

If you would have told me when I was 22 that I would be 30 and single, I wonder what I would have done differently.

Don’t get me wrong- I think God led me and guided me and gave me the most beautiful decade I could have ever wanted.

But. I wonder where my fear held me back. How much more could He have given me if I would have opened my hands to it? I’ll never know.

Let’s be deeply honest: I wonder where my fear of being single forever held me back. I know [like deep in my knower] that there were times that I made choices out of a “what if that keeps me from getting married” mindset.

Here I sit. 30 and single. And I don’t want to be 40 and look back on this decade, whether single or married, and wonder where my fear stopped me from being brave with Jesus.

So. I purchased a plane ticket.

To Scotland.

To finally do something I have wanted to do since I was a 19 year old sophomore at the University of Georgia.

I’ll be living in Scotland… for one month.

Fromย January 17 – February 16, I will be living outside of Edinburgh, still working for Mocha Club, hopefully writing some sort of deeply inspiring words, tapping into my creative well as much as possible, and doing ministry with my friends there. And standing on this rock in St. Andrews just because I can and it reminds me of how near and present our God is.

I do not fear what I will miss being away from Nashville for a month- it happens all the time- boys always head on the road with their bands for more than 4 weeks.

I fear what I would miss if I stay.

I’m not leaving Nashville. How could I? My community here is stuck with me, whether they like it or not. I’m not moving away. I’m just embracing an opportunity to live for a bit in a country that has long held my heart.

Why blog about it now? Because I am about to jump out of my skin with excitement and now that I have purchased my flight, I want to tell my friends in Scotland. This is the easiest way.

I can’t wait to spend this much time with my friends on the other side of the Atlantic. It’ll be hard and weird and different and awesome.

And whatever God has planned, I’m not afraid.

I left fear behind at 29.

It just plain doesn’t fit into my schedule at 30.

37 comments

  1. posted on Sep 17, 2010 at 5:51 AM  |  reply

    I am so excited for you and can’t wait to read about your trip!

  2. Jane
    posted on Sep 17, 2010 at 5:51 AM  |  reply

    Oh my goodness! I am thrilled for you! I have never been there but Edinburgh was Brad’s favorite stop a few years ago when he took his Europe sojourn. Those folks are so blessed to have you there…so much to look forward to……YEAH!

  3. Julie
    posted on Sep 17, 2010 at 6:38 AM  |  reply

    Scotland, what an awesome opportunity! Annie, you inspire me or make me laugh hysterically and/or cry with every blog. (Now, I’m crying). It’s okay, it’s a happy cry. Amy will be sooooo jealous when she reads your news!

  4. posted on Sep 17, 2010 at 7:02 AM  |  reply

    And I will hopefully get to meet you in Scotland too! I will be between Edinburgh and St Andrews staying with friends, so it should be possible, Annie. If you would like to meet up, of course!

  5. posted on Sep 17, 2010 at 7:34 AM  |  reply

    You go, Annie! So excited for you. Thanks for the challenge to live without fear.

  6. posted on Sep 17, 2010 at 7:38 AM  |  reply

    Oh how I wish I could be like you when I grow up! This is outstanding! Love you and can’t wait to see what God’s got in store for you there!!

  7. Elizabeth N
    posted on Sep 17, 2010 at 8:02 AM  |  reply

    What an amazing decision! I hope you have a wonderful, unforgettable time!

  8. posted on Sep 17, 2010 at 8:47 AM  |  reply

    That’s awesome Annie!!! I know it’ll be an amazing month!! ๐Ÿ˜€

  9. Brooke
    posted on Sep 17, 2010 at 8:48 AM  |  reply

    Oh Annie, how fantastic!
    Much like you I turned 30 this year (a hard turn) and am still very single. Funny that you should write about the same fear I’ve wrestled with for the past decade. Or perhaps not…you continue to inspire me by taking life by storm and reminding me to leave fear behind.

  10. Merideth Schoolcraft
    posted on Sep 17, 2010 at 9:13 AM  |  reply

    Annie, that is so exciting. I’ve heard you talk about your heart for Scotland, so I know how thrilled you are to be taking this adventure.
    Sometimes I really envy your life Annie. You are such an inspiration,and you’ve given me some food for thought with this post. Thanks for that. I’ll be praying for you as you prepare for, and take, this adventure.

  11. posted on Sep 17, 2010 at 10:18 AM  |  reply

    This is so exciting! I’ll begin praying now for your time there next year. You’ll be gone during the same time my parents are usually on the mission field, so we’ll definitely be praying for the nations!

  12. posted on Sep 17, 2010 at 10:38 AM  |  reply

    That is so exciting! I can’t wait to read about your trip. I recently turned 30 as well and am working on leaving my fear behind. Thanks for your inspiration!

  13. Laura
    posted on Sep 17, 2010 at 11:04 AM  |  reply

    Take me with you, School is for fools. Not really but that is so awesome, Annie. I’m so happy for you!!

  14. posted on Sep 17, 2010 at 11:36 AM  |  reply

    Annie – this is Wonderful!! I don’t know you, but I am so proud of you! ๐Ÿ™‚ I did something similar, and the rewards were SO great. I know the Lord will bless you abundantly – I just know it!!

  15. posted on Sep 17, 2010 at 11:49 AM  |  reply

    You inspire me Annie! I hope you have the best time in Scotland!!
    So many times I dreaded the thought of where I am now but here I sit and now I need to twirl the best I can!

  16. posted on Sep 17, 2010 at 12:12 PM  |  reply

    This is so crazy. My family and I were just talking about moving to Scotland to do mission work TODAY!

  17. Angelica
    posted on Sep 17, 2010 at 12:12 PM  |  reply

    AHHHHHHHHHH :)))))) ANNIE i’m so excited for you and i want to come meet you when your hear. As long as you promise to tell me when you’re free im not going to let you go without seeing you again. You just made my good week even better. I am so excited for you and im stuck for words. When we heard a story about you at camp in Beauty 101 it was just like you were there and it reminded me of you. Your personality was flowing throught it (i think it was out of your book.) not 100% sure though. I can’t believe it! xxxxx <3 you soo soo much and keep in touch. x

  18. posted on Sep 17, 2010 at 12:36 PM  |  reply

    That is awesome!

    Man, you are such a stinking inspiring person!!!

    Please blog during your trip!!

  19. Face
    posted on Sep 17, 2010 at 1:34 PM  |  reply

    Welcome to the Other Side of the Pond, Friend!
    I assume you’ll be staying there the whole month, but you know you’ll have a free place to stay in Praha if you need a weekend away… ๐Ÿ™‚

  20. posted on Sep 17, 2010 at 1:42 PM  |  reply

    Glad you pulled the trigger. I hope you still have that picture I sent you in July. If not, I’ll re-send it. That view is pretty dang cool!

  21. posted on Sep 17, 2010 at 4:16 PM  |  reply

    WOW! I’m so jealous right now but in a ‘super excited for you’ way. I hope you take/post lots and lots of pictures!

  22. Jennifer
    posted on Sep 17, 2010 at 4:16 PM  |  reply

    Much easier post to respond to than the last two…totally over my head! Ha!

    Annie, I am so proud of you. I cannot tell you how many things I look back on and wish I had done. Some may have never worked out…but I am certain there are some that would have and would have enriched my life greatly. I wanted to be a traveling nurse and didn’t. I wanted to go be a camp counselor for a month and didn’t. There are other things but I think this is wonderful and you will be so glad you said yes. Enjoy this moment you are in, keep saying yes.

    And now, I will ignore that comment above that says school is for fools and I will not look at the cancelled check I wrote to her college just a mere 7 weeks ago…who is that girl and WHAT was she thinking? Ha!

    Love her and you! Many hugs!

  23. posted on Sep 17, 2010 at 4:20 PM  |  reply

    Excellent! What an amazing adventure this will be for you!

  24. posted on Sep 17, 2010 at 6:25 PM  |  reply

    That is so awesome! I totally relate to where you’re coming from. I have struggled with the same fears and wonder what I’ve missed out on because of it. And when I turned 30 in January, I made a conscientious decision to not live in the land of “What ifs?” anymore. What is meant to be will be. In any case, I can’t wait to hear about your time in Scotland.

  25. Linda
    posted on Sep 17, 2010 at 8:29 PM  |  reply

    So glad you’ve “left fear behind.” you won’t miss it at all. Awesome turn of events, Miss Annie!

  26. Lisa
    posted on Sep 18, 2010 at 7:00 AM  |  reply

    Annie!!! I am so excited for you!!! And for those precious folks in Scotland!!! Hsve a wonderful time plus some…for us!!
    Love you!

  27. To Think Is To Create
    posted on Sep 18, 2010 at 8:39 AM  |  reply

    So so SO proud of you and inspired by you and honored to know you and get to read the journey. Xoxo

    Arianne

  28. posted on Sep 19, 2010 at 8:16 AM  |  reply

    Good for you! I think this trip will be SO great ๐Ÿ™‚ I turn 30 next month and I’m certain my 30s are gonna be the greatest decade of my life yet! I wish the same for you ๐Ÿ™‚ Cannot wait to read your blog while you are a Scottish lass!

  29. posted on Sep 19, 2010 at 10:50 AM  |  reply

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  30. posted on Sep 19, 2010 at 8:21 PM  |  reply

    Ohh Annie! I am so excited for you, and a bit jealous, but mostly excited! I just love Scotland so much! It is a great place! You are awesome and I am so excited for what God is going to do in your life!!!

  31. kelly k
    posted on Sep 19, 2010 at 9:38 PM  |  reply

    you are going to love it! We lived outside London for 3 yrs and the the Scots were the NICEST people we ever met. Must go visit a castle near ayr/prestwick Culzean? They made the best soup I have ever eaten inmy life.

  32. posted on Sep 20, 2010 at 9:29 AM  |  reply

    yay! So exciting! I had a dream last night about Scotland and the Fraley’s home….now I wake up to this! So excited for you Annie!

  33. posted on Sep 20, 2010 at 4:06 PM  |  reply

    I love Scotland! Even the winter. ๐Ÿ™‚ I spent two days there in January during my 10 day trip to the UK with one of my closest friends. My trip was my graduation present (from grad school) to myself. It was very cold, but nothing this Alabama girl couldn’t handle.

    I did in fact meet a very cute British boy while in the UK who I still occasionally talk to. Just a little inspiration for you. ๐Ÿ™‚

  34. posted on Sep 21, 2010 at 5:36 AM  |  reply

    Wow, that’s so cool!! It’s a thrill to do something like that. I went to live in Ireland for a while. It was interesting, nice, frustrating, all at once… If work hadn’t been so bad there, I might still have been living there.

  35. posted on Sep 21, 2010 at 11:03 PM  |  reply

    This is amazing, AnnieD! I’m so excited for you!

    You know, if things go all wrong for me (or maybe all right? probably.) in the next few months, who knows where I’ll be.

    It’s terrifying, stressful and wonderful all rolled up into one!

  36. lane
    posted on Sep 22, 2010 at 11:47 AM  |  reply

    dude i am so pumped about this. i can’t wait to hear all about it and read your posts from over there! this is going to be so great for you.

  37. posted on Sep 24, 2010 at 4:30 AM  |  reply

    AMAZING!!!! you’re going to love it here! i shall try and prepare the good people of edinburgh for it all ๐Ÿ™‚

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