What April 1 means to me.

on April 1, 2013 in AnnieWrites, Dreams Coming True with 8 comments by

Growing up in Marietta, Georgia, I absolutely loved April Fool’s Day.

Our hometown newspaper always took April 1 to try to slide in ridiculous stories and funny tidbits. I clearly remember running downstairs on the morning of April 1 and seeing the paper open on the table and scanning every story to see if it was true or a total joke.

[Oh Marietta Daily Journal, you are the best.]

When I was in the fifth grade, my classroom, and the classroom across the hall, decided to prank our teachers by switching rooms and putting our heads down to see if our teachers would notice. [Spoiler alert: they did.]

But April 1 has come to mean something totally different to me.

. . . . .

Last year, on April 1, I walked away from my day job at Mocha Club and began to try to be a full time writer and speaker.

I was so scared. Like whoa scared.

In December of 2011 when the conversation about leaving started, I was beyond scared. Like, too scared to quit. But my boss at Mocha Club asked me to be brave and on April 1, I had no choice.

There was no safety net. There was no lifesaver. The new guy wanted my desk and I had to get out.

So I jumped.

I jumped into a career I didn’t have training to do.

I jumped into the life of a small business over with no experience.

I jumped into a schedule of travel that neither me or my relationships were prepared for. AT ALL.

I jumped out of financial security.

I jumped into what God had for me, even though I hate falling.

For 365 days, I’ve been falling.

And while this last year has held some of the most challenging days of my entire life – example July 31 [I can’t really tell you all the details, I just think it seems less cliche and more legit if you know the worst date of my year], it has also held many of the best. I have had to make professional decisions that I never predicted and have cried over situations I couldn’t have known would come up.

Feeling left out socially and expressing that to my friends after being on the road for two weeks straight?

Having people I don’t know say ugly things about me on the internet?

Balancing my small group and college ministry with a busy travel schedule?

Some days, it has been too much and I have wanted to stay in bed. [I bet that has been true for you in the last year, too, hasn’t it?]

But on the other days? The really great days? The days where this life is every career dream I’ve wanted coming true?

Yeah. It’s been awesome. I am so so so grateful that God has done this for me and been my Teacher and Cheerleader and Safe Place To Land every step of the way.

. . . . .

In all of it, here is what I have learned:

God dreams bigger than we do. God can be trusted. God is doing something on Earth and if we want, we can be a part of it. I pray that every day- I pray that God would close the wrong doors and open the right ones, and I pray that He would show me what He is already doing here and let me get in on it.

Year one is down. My freshman year of this career is over, and probably so is the honeymoon. Though I will tell y’all, on the average day, it pretty much feels like I’m on vacation. I don’t feel like I have gone to “work” in a really long time.

Year two begins today. Sophomores are comfortable and growing and learning and confident. That’s who I hope to be this year- encouraging other writers, growing in my own writing, continuing to resource youth leaders and youth groups, and walking confidently in the direction of my dreams.

Here’s to being a sophomore. 🙂

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What do you see God doing around you that you want to be a part of?

8 comments

  1. posted on Apr 01, 2013 at 8:56 AM  |  reply

    Annie! You go girl!

    That is awesome to hear!

    This past August, I stepping into a role as the Director of Holy Hands. It’s a non-profit home missions ministry, we partner with local churches and help train and equip them to evangelize in their own communities.

    It was a HUGE step. I’m only 27 (26 at the time & and did i mention still single?haha) I have made many mistakes since that day, and this summer will be my first “tour” (multiple home missions trips back to back) as the Director. I am scared speechless most days, and I want to back peddle as fast as I can back to the winter months, but I know this is what God has for me, and I know that this will be my best summer yet!

    God is good, and I am enjoying this journey He has set me upon no matter how scary it might be, no matter how far away from family I am, I know I am right where He wants me to be! 🙂

  2. Nkule sishi
    posted on Apr 01, 2013 at 9:21 AM  |  reply

    Yo words have inspired me as i am about to go through change of season soon. Thank u soooooo much.

  3. posted on Apr 01, 2013 at 11:12 AM  |  reply

    Oh, Annie. You do this and more so beautifully. Keep walking confidently in those dreams knowing you inspire so many of us girls – older and younger – to do the same.

    I love you.

  4. Hillary
    posted on Apr 01, 2013 at 11:25 AM  |  reply

    I feel like God is up to SOMETHING… I just can’t quite put my finger on it. Like my heart is being prepared for something unknown. It’s exciting and scary all at the same time!

  5. posted on Apr 01, 2013 at 3:27 PM  |  reply

    God deffo has a plan for me these days, some signs but can’t really see them real clear yet.

    You are one strong and inspiring woman Annie, just so you know.

  6. Molly Hasty
    posted on Apr 02, 2013 at 7:57 AM  |  reply

    Hi Annie ! How did you know that God wanted you in a new place ? I’m in a stage of life where I don’t know what God has planned for me and sometimes it feels like he is so silent on the matter when I pray for him to reveal his will for me …ok It feels like that alot of the time. How do you know when to “jump” ?

  7. posted on Apr 02, 2013 at 12:53 PM  |  reply

    As I graduate college in less than a month, I am seeing how God is preparing my heart for the new season of life and that while my ministry may take on a different form, He will walk alongside me the entire way. Its frightening at times to look toward the future, but I can see the transformation of my thoughts and desires.

  8. posted on Apr 02, 2013 at 10:15 PM  |  reply

    I am high fiving you all over the place in my heart. Proud of you. Love you. Have the song Freshman by Verve Pipe stuck in my head now and not even mad about it.

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