Two friends and I went to see Disney’s Moana yesterday afternoon. I was excited for sure (I tend to either like movies or LOVE movies…so it’s always exciting for me) but gosh it’s a good one, y’all. And in a way that only a God as kind as ours would do, He put His hand right over a pain point in my heart while I watched Moana.
I don’t want to give any movie details away, but as brave little Moana heads out on her mission, she carries a glowing green stone with her, the visible symbol of what she is called to, the important work she’s been chosen (by the ocean) to do.
When some time has passed (about an hour for us, a few days for her) and Moana has done everything she knows to do and is still failing, when she is deeply disappointed and out of strength, in the middle of the night out on the ocean in her canoe, she decides she can’t do it anymore. This calling on her life is too much and she turns to the ocean and with the stone in her hands, begins to speak to the waters.
“Why did you bring me here?” she asks, “I’m not the right person. You have to choose someone else. Choose someone else. Please.” She holds out the stone, offering it back to the ocean, and a wave reaches into her palm and takes the green stone and lets it drop through it’s water to the bottom of the sea. And then Moana cries.
And so did I, right there in the movie theater.
Because I don’t know about you, but there are days that I look back to God and open my hand and say, “take back this calling, please. I can’t do this. Let someone else have it.”
I want Him to choose someone else.
It feels too hard.
I tried and didn’t succeed like I thought I would.
This isn’t how I pictured my calling, my life, my ministry, my future. (Can I get an amen?)
Just this week I said to God, “Hey, I didn’t sign up for this and I don’t like it. Do You even care about that?”
(Sure, I’m talking about being single, but also some other areas of my life that are in a bit of turmoil currently.)
Somedays, not most days, but probably more days than I want to admit, I ball up all the things I feel called to write about and talk about and live through and I stretch out my hands and ask Him, “Why did you bring me HERE?” And I remind Him I’m not the right person. And I ask Him to choose someone else. Please.
And it makes me cry.
Throughout the film, Moana has a mantra about who she is, where she is from, and what she is doing. A few minutes after this heartbreaking scene when she gives her calling back, through a series of flashbacks and a visit from someone in her past (no spoilers here!), she remembers who she is. She remembers her unique spot on the planet. She remembers what this is all for. And she dives deep into the ocean after that glowing green stone. Moana grabs it for herself this time. What was handed to her before is now something she is choosing, because she sees how much it matters.
(And now I am a MESS in the theater.)
Because for every conversation I start where I hand back to God all that He has called me to do and the life He has given me, He speaks up quickly and reminds me of who I am and why I’m here and what this is all for. And then I have the strength, and the genuine desire, to CHOOSE this life for myself. To believe that it matters, to be grateful for the calling and the opportunities and my unique spot on the planet.
Phew. I didn’t plan for Moana to talk to me about God and my calling and remind me to persevere and even rejoice in where I find myself today- personally and professionally- but she did. What a beautiful and kind moment from God to me in the middle of an animated kid movie. What a way to remind me that yes, He does care and yes, He does see, and yes, all of this matters. And I’m really really grateful.
If Lifeway is gonna let you have a copy of Looking For Lovely for only FIVE AMERICAN DOLLARS, I’m gonna help you build out a little gift for a few different women in your life.
Today- let’s talk about those lovely single gals in your life! In addition to a copy of Looking For Lovely, here are a few gift ideas I loooooove that I think any of your single friends will love too. So pick a few or pick ’em all, but they will be great co-gifts with the book!
Grace & Perseverance bracelet :: just like my wrist tattoos I write about in the book, but with less pain (or permanency).
Entrusted by Beth Moore :: I just finished this study and I looooooved it deeply.
Queen Radiant Lipstick :: this stuff is amazing. All the shades are beautiful, but Queen is the one I can’t quit.
Let’s All Be Brave Mug :: I drink out of it twice a week at least, depending on my dishwasher.
Young Living Deep Relief Roller :: I don’t sell oils, but my friend Brittany does, and this deep relief roller has legit changed my life. I get lots of migraines and this puppy helps a ton.
Garden & Gun :: I love this magazine.
Women’s Foil Print Vintage Vee Tee :: this pink t-shirt with gold foil dots is the cutest I’ve seen at Target in a while.
The Road Back To You :: the enneagram is one of my favorite things to talk about and I think we could all really benefit from learning about ourselves and each other.
So there you go! Gifts gifts gifts for daaaayyyysss! Well, for one day. Christmas Day. December 25. Just in case you needed that reminder.
In case you missed it, I posted some gift ideas for young women, and a longer list for the moms in your life! Also, if you have any gift recommendations to go along with Looking For Lovely, leave it down in the comments for us. That’ll be fun to see what y’all share too.
What happens when the Light that guides us seems to disappear?
Y’all know me. I don’t do this a lot. (Actually. I don’t know that I’ve ever done this…. have I?) But I haven’t stopped talking about this sermon all week and I’m so grateful for technology making a way for me to share it instead of just retelling the whole thing like I’ve been doing since Sunday.
The service on Sunday morning at my church was a bit of a game-changer for me… which, to be honest, you don’t really expect during Christmas. Right? I’ve read Matthew 2 a lot of times… anyone who celebrates Christmas or reads the Bible during Advent has crossed over the story of the Magi, the wise men who brought gifts to Jesus.
But what Pastor Chris pulled out of the scripture blew my mind.
So I hope you’ll take 36 minutes to watch this and find peace and comfort and revelation AND HOPE in this word. Because I think we have all asked the question Chris is asking here- what happens when you think you’ve followed God but ended up in the “wrong” place?
(video below… if you can’t see it for some reason, you can watch here on youtube.)
Thoughts? I’d love to hear what you are processing after you watch.